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“I feel like an outsider looking in. It’s like I don’t fit in anymore, or something. I’m always just the observer now.” ~someone who locked the LJ entry, so I don’t know if she’ll mind. 

I commented, telling her that I feel the same way, and have for a long time. Whether I’m here or in Manila. It sucks, but other than bitching about it a load, I don’t know what to do.

Sometimes I think that I’m shy, or that I must suck at making friends, that I’m not interesting enough for people or maybe I’m just too weird for most… That I’m too selfish and self-centered, that I’m too talkative, too hyper, too annoying.

I’ll shut up now. I’m not sure if I’m still making sense… or if I ever did.